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The more I try to plan out the plot for my new story, the more questions I seem to come up with. I'm trying to create the backstory upon which the entire story will be based; the rules of this new world, and trying to come up with a way to weave both into the story seamlessly and in a no-boring way. That would be nice. To write something "non-boring"!<\/p>\n
Sometimes I think I just overplan things. I guess it helps in one way – so I have a basis on which to start. But other times, all the over-planning sort of takes the wind out of my sails.<\/p>\n
I guess because I've been out of practice for so long, each step in the process of writing a story is daunting to me now. And I've put so much pressure on myself now that I'm afraid of "making a mistake".<\/p>\n
I know not every word has to be perfect – that editing is the real stage of shaping and making real sense of the ideas in the story. But I still can't help but feel that I just have to get it right the first time because of all this time I've spent away from it, doubting myself.<\/p>\n
I'm also finding that the more I try to plan it all out, the further I get from my original concept – which just confuses me and makes me want to give up.<\/p>\n
Distractions seem to be my biggest problem right now. I'd like nothing better than to have a writing room to escape to – to shut the door, put on some music and just WRITE – with no worries about what time it is, do I have to start fixing dinner, am I being selfish writing when Chris is at work making money to pay the bills, oh shit – I haven't done my daily workout yet, and the walls in this bachelor apartment are so paper thin that I can hear the losers next door fighting.<\/p>\n
I wish I could just ESCAPE right now. Have a cottage by the lake with no one around but me. Unfortunately, my only escape is either my own head (and with a little help from my headphones) or a previously pigeon-shit covered balcony in the blazing sun that gives me a migraine.<\/p>\n
I wonder if other writers find it this difficult at times. Does every moment spent NOT writing feel like a moment wasted? Every demand on your time for something other than writing make you feel more desperate, more determined, more hostile?<\/p>\n
The only good thing I find in these intense feelings is that the passion within me to write is fierce again. That has to be a good thing. Of course, it could also drive me to the brink of insanity.<\/p>\n
I just don't want to be this way forever. Stuck in these moments of frustration. I want to move forward, for something to give. For my brain to follow what my heart & soul are starving for. It isn't fame. It isn't fortune. It is to share my thoughts, to connect, perhaps to inspire others to follow their own passions.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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