One of the things I want to work on this year is to stop second-guessing myself so much.
I do this in my everyday life, not to mention my writing, and conquering this self-defeating habit can only help me in both aspects.
In terms of my writing, here's the pattern I fall into:
- I start/write a story
- I get stuck or come up with a new approach
- If stuck, I procrastinate, waffle and generally avoid figuring out how to get unstuck
- I doubt my new approach, worrying I'll ruin the work I've already done by changing it
- After hemming, hawing and getting nothing done, I finally dig my heels in and figure out what's wrong
Yeah, it's that last step I need to cut out. Because the hemming & hawing eats up a lot of time that I could be using to finish and work on something new.
If NaNoWriMo has taught me anything, it's that I can write at least 5K a day if I really push myself. I think this self-doubt is part of the reason I don't feel satisfied with my writing output in 2010. Truth be told – I've been lazy. I can do it – it's a matter of ambition.
I know that I did not complete enough writing in 2010. Not enough to feel like I made strides. This year, I truly feel that I will make huge progress with my writing. Write more, try new things, go outside my comfort zone.
What are you afraid of? Are you ready to conquer it?