Transformations

Lately, images of the past have crept into my dreams. I’m not convinced it has anything to do with the people involved, but more a reflection of what that time in my life represented to me.

I lived. I had adventures. I left behind what I wasn't and started looking for my true self, within my heart. It was back in 1995 that I dropped everything to move across the country.

It was a brave move on my part. The idea came to me one Friday and by the end of that weekend, I had my airline tickets. I remember how exciting that time was. Not only was I exploring the country, but myself, not only as a person but a writer. For 4 months I backpacked, slept in a tent, transformed myself.

I’ve always been somewhat shy, but that summer I became someone new. I instigated friendships, shared my soul, broke free of my old Cancerian shell. It was as if I had formed an entirely new person.

Now I realize it wasn’t someone new I’d created. It was me all along.